Take me. I don’t have anything to lose.

i just got outta sabathani where i worked. i'm thinking redsidents of this area are trying to avoid doing things in the community here because of those ice fuckers. i could give a shit less if those dicks arrest me- the only reason why i got my citizenship certified was because i know it would've just gave my mom an excuse to get atttention for "caring" about me when she's shown absolutely NO concern for my mental health. it's easier for her to put a fake act that she's worried and/or sad when i get pushed so far i can't turn back. OH LOOK! THERE'S MORE FOR AMANDA AND DUSTIN TO LAUGH AT! just because you've never experienced something- it doesn't fuckin mean there's not a problem. save the attempt to be helpful by forcing me to go to courage kenny. when i was going there when my grandma was still alive- i felt worse than this. i remember driving my wheelchair out to the highway and thinking about driving my wheelchair onto the highway- the only thing that stopped me from doing it was hopes that my grandma was telling the truth that amanda would get me to new york. so thanks for NOTHING.